A Painful Pregnancy

This pregnancy sure is different in just about every way. If i didn't know that i was having a girl, i would be convinced that this is a boy - for some reason, i would expect that two girl pregnancies would be more similar... but no. not in the least. 

i had pelvic pain with Gemma too and it came on at the very end, maybe a couple of weeks before my due date. This time, i've had it since very early on (maybe just past the half way mark?) but it was to a mild degree. It has only been getting worse and the fact that i seem to carry babies so low doesn't seem to help the situation. i haven't been able to sleep in my bed for many nights now because lying on my side makes my pubic bone feel like it's cracking into multiple pieces. i also can't lie flat on my back because of back pain and prying myself up with pillows makes my neck hurt. i don't know what the difference is between sleeping on the bed propped up or on the couch propped up, but it seems i can sleep on the couch better.

the only thing is every morning i wake up with terrible, terrible POSTERIOR pelvic pain. this is something new, something i never experienced with Gemma. With my pubic bone pelvic pain, it's all in the front. Apparently the posterior pain is caused by the SI joint ligaments. The combination of this front and back pelvic pain has left me unable to sit, stand, walk, lie down, or be in any one position for more than a couple of minutes. I haven't been able to work the last 2 days because i can't sit for very long periods of time. Walking hurts initially, but it gets better the more i do it, but then i feel like i pay for the extra work at the end of my day.

Up until recently i felt like i was not emotionally ready to have this baby and was really crossing my fingers for her to go past her due date - so i can get this potty training thing down for real with gemma and so we can have that extra time together once i finish work. but i've been in so much pain these last few days that i'm just eager to get this baby out and get on the road to recovery. Thursday marks the beginning of my 37th week, making me officially full term. And boy oh boy, do i ever hope right now for this baby to have a July 1 birthday.